Spring is my season!
For quite some time now I notice that I enjoyed the spring
season. I kept thinking duh, it's Spring
and everything comes alive during Spring especially after a long, dark, cold,
and dreary Winter. But now I realize
that it was during the Spring of 1995 that God rescued me from my sin and
shame. It was April 13-14 in the year of
1995 that I dedicated my life to serving the Lord. It was during that time I received a new life
in exchange for the old and dead one that I was living. LOVE came down and rescued me... I remember
many years ago but it is still fresh in my mind. I would say I was at the lowest point in my
life. I wanted to die and even tried to take my life. It felt like no one understood
me, no one loved me, and no one cared. I felt unworthy, worthless, and
unwanted. I felt like a throw away, I
felt lower than dirt. I was searching
and searching for Love and Acceptance. I did what I could to try to fulfill
those needs. After engaging into some sinful activities I realized that nothing
and no one could satisfy the deeper hunger of my heart and soul. I was
searching for something permanent and not temporary. But God! You see I was
always in church even as a little girl but I did not have a personal relationship
with Him. I did not know He was Real for
myself. I said the sinner’s prayer many
times prior to this defining moment but somehow the moment that made the most
impact on my life was the moment when God embraced me and spoke to me. It was
at a youth convention in Hersey, PA in the mid 90s. So at this convention the
speaker spoke about breaking the chains... And at the end of the message he
gave an altar call. I felt the Spirit of God tugging on my heart very strongly
and I went to the altar. At the altar I began to weep and my youth leader at
the time hugged me and began to pray for me.
It's in that moment that my Life Changed Forever. In that moment I felt the warmth, comfort,
love, and God’s embrace. At that moment
I Knew HE was and is Real and He Cares and He Knows me. In that moment He began to Speak to me and He
told me how much He loved me, He told me He Understands me, He Cares about me,
He Sees Me, He Knows me, He Wants me... That moment is a moment I will never
forget because it was the moment God changed my life and my destiny. In that moment He broke the curse of sin and
shame from my life. It was that moment
He gave me new life and new meaning...
So to me I say, Happy Spiritual Birthday to
Me. It's my 21st birthday as a Born
Again Believer in Christ Jesus.
Hallelujah and Amen!